Friday, October 8, 2010
I got some rest last night and thank God for that because I have been so exhausted. Before I went to bed I had peace and that's what really did it. I just feel God holding back so many negative things that I could be dealing with. I feel like He's sped up this grieving process and that He's just really defending me from negative thoughts and emotions. That's not to say that I haven't felt horrible these past few days, but I just think about how some people deal with this for weeks or months and in a matter of a few days I'm already feeling ok and at least somewhat peaceful. I don't think that this will be the end of my sadness or that I won't have difficulty in my future because of this but I just really feel God holding me with this one. I was able to have tea with a good friend last night and she really clarified some things for me. I want God's best for me in every situation.